Recruiter Agency part 1

I went to a recruiter yesterday. However, the job they claimed they were recruiting for was filled. So far that option is a no go. I think they were impressed with my skills, but it is hard to tell, sometimes. A lot of people like to pretend. It sucks, but it is the way of the world.

I am off to a different recruiting agency at the moment. I hope this isn't another wasted trip. I need a job badly at the moment. I have some other options to follow up on after this interview. I hope something pans out soon. I actually miss working. I am bored, very bored. I have plans that I want to act on, but I can't until I find employment. It is a very frustrating situation.




On a brighter note I did go see Batman after my not very productive interview yesterday. The dark knight rises, was excellent and it helped cheer me up and get my mind off things. Besides that the movie theater I went to had this great $7.00 Tuesday movie special. Finally a reasonably priced movie! 

 I also went to Barnes & Noble and found one of the movies I have been waiting to add to my collection for ages. The movie adaptation of Elizabeth Gaskell's "North & South." The BBC version. It was the cheapest price I have ever seen it so I couldn't pass it up. I even double checked the price online for used ones and this one was still a better deal! Yay, for bargain shopping!

Homelessly Bound

I hate being homeless. I really hate it. It makes me feel like a loser and like I'm helpless (which I am not). I have been staying with my best friend and her family for over two months now and it looks like my extended visit is no longer tolerable. 

I totally get it, I mean I know I have been living on their charity and goodwill for much longer than I should have, but I didn't have any other real options. I am trying to make a go of things here and they have been a great help to me. I have been homeless, but at least I could stay with my best friend that somehow made me feel better about my homelessness. lol

Sometimes I think my life is a running joke. The only thing is I'm the only one who isn't laughing. I could go live with my mother in another somewhat nearby state, but I would rather keep that as my absolutely last resort. Like if I had no other choice but to live on the streets then and only then would I go home. There are many reasons why I feel this way, but just take my word for it. If I moved back home it would end badly. lol Very badly. 

I just found out that my friend and her family are going to allow me to stay with them until the end of September. I am soooo glad, I feel like I am really close to finding something. I even have 3 job interviews lined up for next week. Yay! One is for a private company, and the other two are for some recruiting agencies. 

I have been busy as a bumblebee and it looks like I will be even more busy before I actually do find something. 

Well it's definitely a start! Cheers to my future! I'll drink to that.   :-D 

Yay for Health

Today is officially my second day of working out in a really long time. I have the most awful diet habits. Maybe not the worst in the world, but they a re pretty bad. What makes it worse is that I know better. So I feel pretty good right now. 

I want to remember how great I feel right now, because it will hopefully help me to continue on my health and weight loss journey. I am so overweight it's not even funny. It's sad, it totally effects my life in every way and I hate it! So here is to being progressive! 

I want to be in better health. I think watching the Olympics inspired me. I love the swim meets!

At this point in my life until I lose a bit more weight I can't even safely pursue some of the sports I want to be a part of. Besides, I don't have a disposable income to contribute to a gym membership yet, but when I do I will have some fun!

I used to fence and swim and I would love to take back up with both activities, I also want to try boxing (which is the most intense workout you could possibly do). I am not physically prepared for a boxing class at the moment, but I look forward to being ready! 

So here is to fitness, health and progressive thinking.

One Day

I'm up way too late right now. I should be in bed, but instead I'm in bed watching Titanic. It's been ages since I watched this movie and caught it at the beginning. I love the beginning before everything goes to hell. My favorite part is when Jack and Rose are in steerage at the party and are having fun drinking and dancing in each others arms. 

Makes me think of my romantic life or rather my lack of one. I yearn for that kind of romance in my life. I yearn for it all except for the part where the boat goes down and people die. I try to be all bristly and ice-like for protective purposes, but deep down I am a hopeless romantic who would like to believe in happy beginnings and happy endings too. 

Maybe one day I'll find a mate that I can treat and love and respect as an equal. I want those things in my life; I need them; I yearn for them with every fiber of my being. 

SO cheers to a hopeless romantic that still hopes for her "One day"..............

Empire State of Mind

When I first moved to NYC in March I thought I would have so many great job opportunities. So far nothing has come through and I have been unemployed now for way too long. I miss working. It's not like I'm not being open minded and being open to new jobs, or experiences. I have applied for a lot of sub par jobs too or at least what I would consider sub-par. I am used to making pretty decent money. I thought NYC would be great and I would make higher wages, because of the cost of living etc, but the jobs I see here want to pay me the same amount or less than what I was getting in my previous job in a smaller town where the cost of living was much more affordable. 

I feel so frustrated right now. I don't know whats going to happen to me, but I'm not giving in yet. It just feels like I have been climbing a mountain uphill for a long time, and I really want to take a break and rest, but I can't. 

 I don't want to move to a completely different state and move in with my mother (whom I love, but drives me nuts) But honestly my options are slowly moving out. I thought it would take me 3 months tops to get a job even a shitty one, but so far nothing has come through. 

I have been on a ton of interviews. I have signed up with temp agencies. I have trolled the internet and applied right and left for jobs. I have done quite a bit, but apparently not enough. I still have some tricks up my sleeve so I'm not throwing in the towel yet!

Besides if I can make it here, it will be like some self-validating test and it will be proof to myself and others that I really can make it on my own! 

"It ain't over till it's over" and I am not ready to give in yet. I feel like I am so close to something big that I can taste it, but it keeps eluding me.